“Pachas rupaiya aur chauvan paise…..aaj din bhar yehi mila
babuji…..ye kuch samaan hai jo nahi beeke….machine mein daal ke hawa nikaal lio….kal
subah phir dekhte hai”…..this was my daily routine after a hard day at work……taking
a shower in our nearby “pokhariya”….came back home to help out mom making the
dinner….lavish dinner for us happened to be four pieces of chapatti with onions…..some
day if mom used to get some extra food from her “malkins”…..it used to be a
treat for us…..me and my brother “baabu”…..but I loved them….i loved their
colours…..green, red, blue, magenta…..speciallly when you tied them together in
a bunch….it was as if a bouqet of fresh flowers..readily plucked in the
morning..to be offered for Puja……I loved the smile on a child’s lips when it
became his property….. “aur bhi lio naa babua…..ye he naa…kutta, khargos,
cycle, fool…tumko kaun sa bhaata hai”…..i loved standing at the traffic signal
& watching the lights change colours….red..yellow..green…..the numbers on
the signal plate had actually taught me
bit of mathematics….i could calculate now…..i loved moving from window
to window….. i loved touching those shiny smiling glasses….which used to roll
down and take my colourful friends inside…..i loved the red colour most…coz it
made those racing cars come to a screeching halt……my work used to start from
9:00 A.M in the morning…..azad nagar traffic signal was my office cabin….had
managed to get a stand from the local “alu kulcha wala’….my brother “Baabu” used to accompany me to work……managing my colourful companions …..blowing them, tying
them in neat bunches, making various shapes out of them…….the cacophony of the
increasing traffic used to allure me…..no matter it was the scorching heat of
the summer or the chilly breeze of
winters….my employment at “Azad Nagar Traffic signal” was permanent……Diwali was
near….and I had prayed to God for a new salwar kameez this time….the once that I
wore had become tattered…yet mom had done some patchwork and it was “kaam
chalau” for sometime….needed to buy a pair of new slippers for baabu too….his
old ones had worn out and there was no money to buy him a new pair…..our
sole breadwinners were my mom…..she used
to work as a domestic help in 4 houses in azad nagar DDA society…..earning a meager
of Rs.400 per house “har kaam 200
rupaiya…..jaaru pocha…bartan”…..and I was “Chunmun Baloonwala”…..It was babuji’s
“naamkaran”…….mom used to recite stories about his bravery at the battlefield…and
her marriage to a “brave soldier”….in those days it was brilliant luck to get married to a valiant
man…..little did she know that once considered “luck” would make her marriage life
so painful…..that she would have to wash soiled utensils at someone’s place…..manage
her lunch and dinner on left overs….never send her children to school…and the
worst of all…..feed and take care of an ailing husband…who had lost his limbs
at the war……all our relatives had deserted us….we came from “ Fatehganj”…a
small village in the interiors of north west UP…….where the birth of a girl
child was still a sin…..and getting married at the tender age of 10 for a sum
of money considered lucky. “Arre ai ladki…..vo hara wala dena…..kitne ki hai?” “Panch
rupaiya madame……kiske lie chawat ho?...gudiya ke lie….to yeh laal wala le jawat
ho..aur acha lagega”….the five rupee coin glittered in babu’s eyes…as he rolled
into the small tin can…supposedly our account box “aaj ki pehli baouni ho gayi
didi”…..i was 11….the blue uniform and the red ribbons with that grey shoulder
bag used to often disturb me in my dreams…..someday I felt I could go to “Padmini
Devi Senior Secondary School” the big board waved at me from a distance to the
Azad nagar traffic signal…..but mom’s wailings every night and babuji’s
sufferings everyday used to bring me back to my reality…..we were destined to
be here…..morning 9 to evening 9…..what could we have asked for more……my balloons
used to be my only amigos…..a new one ..a new colour ..a new shape…..it had
everything wrapped in it…..new wishes..new desires….new beginning….new hopes….some
day I wished..i will accumulate all my piggy bank savings to cure babuji….to
buy mom a new saari…..to gift baabu a new school uniform…….i wanted to be like my
colourful freinds…..so fresh..so colourful..so enigmatic….bringing a smile on
everyone’s face….from a child to a grown up..from a boy to a girl…..i could be
lifted in the air….played with …..used for birthday parties in big hotels and
restaurants….mark independence day and republic day……the best part of all….fly
with my wings spread out….like an aeroplane….fly past meadows….rivers…fly past
schools..colleges…..fly past….Hotel Chandan….(the biggest five star hotel in
Azadpur)…..fly past Governor’s House,..fly past GT road…..fly past
dilli..bumbai..kulkutta….fly past everything “udhna hai mujhe….yehi to chahti
thi mai”………yes I had dreams….i had hopes….every morning sun ray through my
window mesemerised me….coming so far way from us..it used to light up entire
earth…I wanted to fly….fly with my dreams..run with my hopes…..play with my
desires…..someday I wanted to grow up….set up my shop…..study….live in a big
house….have a green garden…..some day..somewhere…where mom wouldn’t hve to work….babuji
was cured….babu could go to school “Was I making too BIG a wish ……..today?? “Chunmum uth jaa….kaam pe jaana hai”…..came
mom’s husky voice in anger…..suraj mama was still smiling on me…..slowly I gathered
myself up…there was lot of sunlight in our “do by do” kholi……
Story has been well woven around central character Chunmun's life; it reaches out to the readers very well conveying the fact that despite harsh situations there can be no dearth of dreams...!!!
ReplyDeleteThe little sunshine is enough to lighten the heart where big dreams can well be nurtured!
Well written, Arpita!!!
Thanks Anu..glad that my communication reached out to you...:)
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